Phildo TU's Journal

Hey
Once again its been a long time since I updated my journal..

Thanks to everyone who was able to make it to the wake a week or so ago.. So many people turned up here and none of them were family, it was pretty amazing.. We then flew to Michigan the following day for the funeral.. We had another viewing on Friday and then Saturday morning was the Funeral. She was buried in Michigan because that is where her entire family is... It was a tough choice to make, I would have rather had my mom layed here but its whats best for the entire family..

Everything went very well.. it was nice to see my entire family again, especially my goddaughther.. Returning to the house Saturday night was something very differnt..

Everything seems so empty around here.. She was sick for 7 months and for those 7 months everything revolved around her.. I was so used to getting home from work and just sitting around the house with her so to come home to no one is real hard.. The nights are real hard also.. We are doing our best to fix up the house, as we never really had a chance to before mom was in the hospital as we had just moved in.. We received so many flowers that we turned the place into a greenhouse.. It looks real nice and smells even better..

I've been trying to keep myself busy, I took a week off from work in order to relax and went back this Monday.. Cass Courtney and I went bowling the other night.. It was real fun getting beaten by my crooked arm sister and wet butted Courtney.. Saturday we went to the Orioles game which was pretty fun even though Courtney broke the law.. Sunday Courtney's mom invited me over for a good Italian dinner which was really good, first time I had home cooking in a while.. We then proceeded to attend what seemed like a Southern Baptist mass, as it was around 2 hours long.. I then did my best to avoid work the next day but failed

I think they hardest part of it all is being around my friends and seeing their families.. I dont know how people who have lost their parents or never had any can do it.. I helped my friend move and it was real tough, just reminded me of somethings which will never be the same.. Theres alot I want to say but I will save it for a later time when I figure out how to say it best..

I'm done working in 8 work days then I have a couple weeks off before we head back to school for my 2nd final year.. I'm ready to just head back and get as busy as possible.. I have to complete my portfolio this year so I'm hoping to be able to put as much into it as possible through more volunteer work and various school activites.. I'm hoping to switch to student teach at Howard Co. schools so I can make fun of red headed spanish teachers and kids who drive pickup trucks...

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